Okay y’all, if you’ve ever been on a call and someone’s said the word “productivity”, you’ve probably seen me make a nasty face, and possibly heard me go on a rant. This topic is intended to better put into words those thoughts and feelings, and examine how we can make “productivity” an act of pleasure and joy within our community.
One of the biggest things I’ve been reflecting on is the fact that capitalism is abusive. It’s taught us to fear for our lives if we do not Produce, or that we are only valuable if we are constantly Producing, whether or not that act of production is harmful to ourselves or others. I see this in my friend who is a baker with chronic pain. They have expressed to me that they feel like they must make themself indispensable in order to have security with their income, but comes home and is barely able to walk or do the things they enjoy without pain. Capitalism forces us out of integrity with ourselves, especially when it comes to doing work, and I believe it’s lead to some level of trauma for all of us. This is why I say that “productivity” is a bad word to me.
However, I truly don’t believe that productivity is inherently bad. As humans, we have an innate desire to create and build and explore and think. And it is so satisfying to find the path of least resistance through a workflow, or to overcome a challenge, or to have the capacity to work on something for a long time. And this is what I want us to be centered on when we say “productive” at SoureCred. I want us to be operating from a place of creativity and not fear/trauma response. I want us to be here, creating together and staying in integrity with our needs. I deeply believe that we can redefine “productivity” towards a more supportive and encouraging meaning. I see us moving towards this in the month break we just took, the breaks we’re planning, and the fact that we are taking these first couple weeks of January 2021 to make intentional choices about where we put our time and energy.
We are valuable even when we aren’t creating. Taking a break from moving through things quickly doesn’t mean we won’t come back to it later. We can create from a place of joy and not fear.