Hi, I’m new to SourceCred at this point and I’m here to assess the value of my contribution of this snapshot in time. How you ask? Well, I’m creating a discourse topic which I’m told in and of itself does not mint cred but if “hearted” or replied to (is generative) that it will be - by virtue of being valued by other contributors - a minter of cred. So, how valuable am I? How valuable is this snapshot in time? This tangible share of an intangible on boarding experience?
Where were we: I think that this topic will, though, in discourse, create a “node” on the sourcecred algorithm - the cred-giving algorithm - the cred-giving to all things source. The node will identify me in the matrix of discourse collaborations and mint cred to me depending on how generative my post is…. Right?
Here’s some of my SourceCred story: I poked my virtual head in to the SourceCred Discord in… November, I think? 2020. I felt very non-committal. I felt curious and I was dubious that this high-tech, crypto-cult community was going to welcome or know how to value me.
I was pretty sure that, as a person of unique abilities, I would not be seen; that as a person dedicated to care work I would be undervalued; that as a person who values the intimacy of folks in need of care, that my labor would remain invisible so long as folks held intimacy to be private and personal. I felt strongly that my work in the world and the way I find purpose was a good candidate for challenging the sourcecred model - whatever it was. I was pretty sure that I would break SourceCred or leave it knowing that it could never serve me. Luckily it is far more complex then that.
Well, here I am. It’s January 2021 and I’ve just had my first uninhibited, week-long engagement with all things SourceCred. I’ve attended almost all the public meetings, posted to threads to my heart’s content (random chit-chat is a gemini’s delight), and read over a dozen discourse posts. I’ve talked to 3, 4, maybe even 5 people one-on-one and some more than once. I’ve decided to collect stories for a zine. And I’ve scheduled a film showing. So come Friday I decide I would break from screens - and thus SourceCred - beginning sundown Friday until sundown Saturday at the very least.
Today is Saturday. I’ve been experiencing serious withdrawal. I thought I was joking when I tapped my inner forearm, arm extended, and shared with friends that I was johnsing for SourceCred on the daily. Apparently I was more accurate than I realized.
Although most nights this week - and this year so far - I’ve been on a schedule winding down by 9pm, off screens and lo fi by 10, candles before bed and light meanderings of the mind lying in silence or with de-escalatory music, last night I lay awake myriad hours - intermittent and mercilessly - unable to turn off my brain. I ran cred sourcing scenarios, asked endless questions, and listed discourse topics I wanted to start. I started writing paragraphs in my head. I made a meme. Still, I persevered and did not return to the tech of screens. I gave myself pep talks. I was taking my break seriously. I took to pen and paper to scribble down notes at 2 and 4 and 8am to fend off the sleeplessness of the night.
And I’ve made it. It’s sundown now and the dark becomes us in PST as I write this. This contribution. This node creation. This snapshot of a newbie. My very last first post.
Lookout for my next post about rest and breaks